MY FUTURE IS IN MY HANDS

ALOHAAAAAAAAA :D
it's been a long time since my last update ^^ how is everyone doing?
I'm doing pretty fine here :DDDDDD
the thing that had been bothering me for a very long time already GONE!!!!! YESSSSS GONE!!!!!
I'm leading a happier life now :D thx to you~~~ really thx u very much :D
because of you, I have set a lot of GOALS to achieve this year~~ BIG RESOLUTIONS :D
I'm going to lead an ADVENTUROUS life this year!!!!!
I really hope my resolutions can be achieve, all i need to do is study hard & work hard!!! I know I can do it no matter what!!! I'm going to prove everyone wrong!!! & I'm going to show everyone that I can do it & I can be successful in life!!! I'm going to work hard for my future.... what is the most important to me now, is my own future!!!! I want all the luxuries in life & i'm going to work hard for it & earn it & enjoy it myself....
Thx to someone, that abandoned me & u makes my life even more interesting now :) Kamsahamida~~

Leave the past behind~

i need to talk to someone about my problem & i can't think of a friend i can turn to.....
my friends know that i'm pretending to be ok & they know i'm not ok at all~~ they said you are pretending to smile & it is always turn into a frown.... & i keep on convince them i'm ok & i know i'm not ok at all~ why i have to act strong? they asked me to cry it out & i told them i can't....
it's been 2 days & i know it's over but i don't why i'm hurting inside.... now the only thing i can do is to MOVE ON & LOOK FORWARD & FORGET ABOUT THIS RELATIONSHIP LIKE IT NEVER EXIST AT ALL!!!
till then, start everything new :)

Goodbye

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! :)
everyone is hoping for a start of something new.... well me too but i think i had a pretty bad start of the year....
ppl who know me should know what am i referring to.... but i guess maybe i put too much hope in something & in the end when i don't get it, im very piss off... well i am right now...im not complaining or what... all i feel is HURT!!!! why ppl just can't think of others feeling....every human beings are selfish!!!
when im mad, i'll just expressed myself without thinking of others...i know im rude but who care!!! DO 1ST, THINK LATER & REGRET AFTER THAT!!!! hell yeah~~~ i don't know why im regretting for saying those sensitive words....i still have feeling towards him?? i don't know, im a confuse biatch right now~~~ he said he needs some time alone ok...im not going to disturb him.... im giving him some space & some time to think, whether we should continue this i-don't-know-how-to-explain-relationship or not? but from the bottom of my heart, i already know the answer.... anyway padam muka rachel lee :/
i don't know why im being treated like this & i still wanna to be with him? i wanna challenge myself? i don't know.... i should really wake up or i need someone who can slap hard on me to wake me up!!! seriously?? can't you see, he doesn't even wanna spend time with you?? & he doesn't even bother to care?? why he changed every time i went down to KL??? i just wanna to see him, why he made it so hard??? why???
but from this incident, i clearly know that he doesn't putting any effort in this relationship & why i still give him some many opportunity to make things right? i don't know... you can said im plain stupid... i admit i am~~~ cos ILOVEHIM!!!! simple!!!! i guess he will never know my true feeling towards him...hahaha... it's all over i guess.... i should move on & be happy.... i still have friends who support me from doing so.... okok cheers rachel lee :)
when i feel unhappy watch RUNNING MAN :D yeah yeah~~~ i should do so.... im going to make myself busy with variety shows & dramas & fanfics & studies :D less facebook,twitter & checking phone :)
till then, say goodbye my love, i'm so sorry boy!