Goodbye

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!! :)
everyone is hoping for a start of something new.... well me too but i think i had a pretty bad start of the year....
ppl who know me should know what am i referring to.... but i guess maybe i put too much hope in something & in the end when i don't get it, im very piss off... well i am right now...im not complaining or what... all i feel is HURT!!!! why ppl just can't think of others feeling....every human beings are selfish!!!
when im mad, i'll just expressed myself without thinking of others...i know im rude but who care!!! DO 1ST, THINK LATER & REGRET AFTER THAT!!!! hell yeah~~~ i don't know why im regretting for saying those sensitive words....i still have feeling towards him?? i don't know, im a confuse biatch right now~~~ he said he needs some time alone ok...im not going to disturb him.... im giving him some space & some time to think, whether we should continue this i-don't-know-how-to-explain-relationship or not? but from the bottom of my heart, i already know the answer.... anyway padam muka rachel lee :/
i don't know why im being treated like this & i still wanna to be with him? i wanna challenge myself? i don't know.... i should really wake up or i need someone who can slap hard on me to wake me up!!! seriously?? can't you see, he doesn't even wanna spend time with you?? & he doesn't even bother to care?? why he changed every time i went down to KL??? i just wanna to see him, why he made it so hard??? why???
but from this incident, i clearly know that he doesn't putting any effort in this relationship & why i still give him some many opportunity to make things right? i don't know... you can said im plain stupid... i admit i am~~~ cos ILOVEHIM!!!! simple!!!! i guess he will never know my true feeling towards him...hahaha... it's all over i guess.... i should move on & be happy.... i still have friends who support me from doing so.... okok cheers rachel lee :)
when i feel unhappy watch RUNNING MAN :D yeah yeah~~~ i should do so.... im going to make myself busy with variety shows & dramas & fanfics & studies :D less facebook,twitter & checking phone :)
till then, say goodbye my love, i'm so sorry boy!