I'm good in nothing :)

aloha im here again :)

u guys must be shock, why do i come so often recently? erm cos i don't want to update all my ranting at twitter & facebook anymore~~ so i decided to rant at here... it is better no one know this blog anyway :) here is like my secret ranting place from now on hahahaha~ :X

don't worry i will share everything here not only bitterness but also happiness :)

well let's start~~

i know i always give people the feeling that i'm a girl with no emotions~~ cos i always laugh & fooling aound when im with my friends.... haha friends, sorry i need to act cos i don't want to reveal my sad side to u guys~ so i remain as happy as i can~ plus i doesn't want u guys to worry about me & i don't want to reveal anything to anyone~ :) sorry of my selfishness~~

when someone ignore me, i always wanna find out why this person not talking to me~ i always wanna know what did i do that hurt them? but im always that clueless, i don't know what did i do~ maybe sometimes some words that i said, hurt their feelings~ sorry that's my weakness~ if i hurt you, let me know.... i'll change :)

well, frankly speaking i think i don't have friends....haha cos im always alone~ but i always give ppl the impressions that i have a lot of friends but actually i don't~ i don't have true friend~~ i need a friend to share all my emotions lol~~~ but i can't cos i never reveal my secrets to ppl lol~ nvm i will share with u my bloggie

im good in consoling ppl but no one actually know what i have been going through~ haha~ my heart is full of plasters :) lol~~~ being stabbed dk for how many times but surprisingly it's still working fine :) i have a solid heart hahahaha :D

people used to tell me time will heal everything~ i do believe it~ but sometimes i don't~ time is for u to escape everything u have suffer~& u will try to ignore & avoid.....

maybe im a selfish brat! i don't want myself to get hurt, where else i hurt others feeling~ i'm so sorry.....

i'm afraid to be in love.... & i think im not worth for people to love me..... im not pretty, im stupid, im dumb, im not good in anything, in conclusion im nth~ pathetic :)

i don't think i wanna to continue writing anymore haha~~ i feel like crying now lol~~ anyway ciao~~

OH BABY TELL ME WHY YOU ACT SO STRANGE

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!

aloha haha long time never update about my 'WONDERFUL' life lol~~~

well i'm doing very very fine~ still alive, still suffering, still studying, still enjoying, still gaining weights, still removing fats lol~

i think now here is a place for me rant haha~~ all happy & unhappy stuffs imma write it all here from now on :) yippeeee~ anyway no readers also lol~~

sometimes ppl said when u r in love, u r very happy & always like full with happiness & whatsoever~hmmmm i can prove that this is all lies lol~~~

maybe in my case it is different from ppl~ hmmmm.....

anyway i maybe putting too much love on my so-called boyfriend.... one sided love~ clapping one hand all the way~ hahaha bodoh! *facepalm*

i already made the wrong decision, i don't think we can work out anyway...why am i still holding on? i should just cut it off & lead my happy life~~ not worth by thinking or caring for the boyfriend, while he is enjoying his ass out with his friends~~ lol....bodoh!

PLUS, he don't even wanna talk to u & everything he also dunno & keep everything to himself *NO he keeps everything from me* lol~~ bodoh!

he always give u silly excuses & somemore i choose to trust him lol~ bodoh!

ask me what do he like? i only can answer CLUBBING! lol bodoh!

did he talk to u? errrrrr NOPE~~~ lol bodoh!

when is your last conversation with him? errrrrr May?? lol bodoh!

when did u last see him? April~~ lol bodoh!

so u guys r in a long distance relationship? YUP~~~ very very far from each other like Mars & Venus lol bodoh!

My so-called boyfriend said he doesn't know how to express his feeling to me cos we are FAR...lol okok i understand but in the 1st place you should not agree to be in this relationship what!!!! lol bodoh!

although we do not see each other but i can say we r in arguments all the time!!! lol bodoh!

Rachel Lee, you should wake up & face the truth!!! your so called boyfriend doesn't love you at all!!!! time to wake up & end all suffering!!!!! lol bodoh!

okok i should wake up & adjust back my happy life back~~ :D *click the delete button* proofs.....*clearing in process* *data deleted* weeeeeeeeee :D

sometimes when your patience limit is reach, u can't accept it anymore~~

u will tend not to listen & remember explanation is just to cover up the naked truth!

the more u explain, the more u r lying to urself~ to make ur partner feel better~actually sorry i do not feel better in anyway~~~ lol....

anyway on a brighter side, imma to Korean Music Wave 2011 in Malaysia~~~ weeeeeeee :D

gonna enjoy myself to the fullest~~ finally i get to see my FT Babies & TOP!!!!! *fangirl scream*

after that, im going to start my daily library life :D hahahahaha..... i do miss studying now! maybe should start now haha~~~ study! put more effort! remember after all this professional qualification is recognize worldwide!!!! who doesn't hire a professional qualification holder! okok STUDY HARD!!!!! SUCCESSFUL WOMEN IN MAKING!!!!!!

whoever who despise u in the past....show them what u have!!!!! prove them wrong!!!!!

ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF!!!!!! :D

heart is so jetlagged x)

ANNYEONGHASEYO~~~ x)

it's been a long time since my last update hehe~~

im sorry~ cos im very busy with my daily routine lol which is an excuse lol~~ignore me :)

well well well....im doing good here but a lil bit emo lol~~~

emo bout what? erm let me keep it to myself :D hiak hiak hiak~~~

wow June is almost over & we r going to step into the second half of 2011~~~woots~~~

time flies without realizing hahaha & i did nth for the last 6 months~~~ no achievement at all~~lol Rachel Lee u fail :)

ahhhhh i think i did something~~~ make ppl heartbreak i think lol~~~or should i say make ppl hate me?? hmmmm bad bad~~~

ahha~~ recently i met a new friend haha he is not bad hahaha~~ my lil bro always have heart to heart talk with me :) almost say im emo but actually im not hehe~~~ thx friend for cheering me up :) remember u promise to lend me ur shoulder to cry on if something happen to me :) hiak hiak hiak~~~ don worry i won't let myself cry it out lol~~~ im strong lmao~~~ only my heart cries :) hahahahahaha~~~

hmmmm i don't understand why i have those negative thingy always pop up at my mind lol~ is not that i don't trust u, it's u that did not convince me to believe u lol~~ anyway idk~ ilu but idk im confuse...... i wanna give up on us but my heart said NOOOOOO~~lol wtf..... & u always give me a cold shoulder hahaha~~ & i feel like everytime i talk to u, u r just hmmm ok, make me ide. this is why i don dare to talk to u & i feel like im disturbing u~ haha.... anyway idk what should i do? can someone give me some advice? hahahahahahaha~~~ im lost....very very lost :( should i give up? please give me some advice? :)

1st WONDER IN MALAYSIA D-1

aloha haha sorry for delaying the fanaccount :(

cos i just finished my exam :D ok let's start with my fanaccount~~

Day 1

reached Genting around 2pm, went to meet Melin & Yiwei~ finally we met after MTV World Stage which was 5 months ago :) miss them so so so much now :(

after meeting them i went to meet aj,nazz & kak bee :) haha they were staying with me & jane for 1 night, yiwei & melin's room was next to ours :D

after settling everything in the hotel room, we went to stalk lol~~ not really stalk, we went to search for foods~~ but while searching for foods, yujie called me, she told me that she is here woots~at that time we were at 1st world plaza & i asked her to meet at 1st world hotel, so we went all the way back to 1st world hotel to meet her :) yujie nice to meet you, i miss u already TT

after that we bring her to the bell counter to keep her luggages & her stuffs~ then we wanna headed to dinner & then we were walking around genting & we saw 2 vans were inside the arena, then something just popped up in my mind, they were rehearsing inside the arena!!! so i quickly told them that they were inside... but im not sure whether they were inside or not? so we said let's wait n see... & it is!!!! they were inside...when one of the van was out, we saw sohee,yubin n the rest i did not see them~so we wanna know which hotel they are staying so we ran after the van =.= crazy huh... unfortunately we lost them :(... so we decided to go to have our dinner at a BBQ restaurant :) lol.....after dinner we decided to go back to the hotel to bath & then meet up again at starbucks.... but in the end, we heard that they were rehearsing so yiwei n i went to the venue n waited....then later emma n leonard joined us~ jane & melin went to coffee bean...while waiting for them we actually heard what they are going to perform~ :) after that yiwei & leonard went to find the hotel, emma & i stayed at the venue until i met someone i knew... :) he told me where they stayed, but i still dunno where is the place so~ emma & i waited for a lil bit longer then we decided to find the hotel... :) & it's freezing during the night :(

when we climbed to the hotel, it's very windy & it's very cold.... :(

after we arrived at the hotel, not much fans are there.... only our gang & SG gang were there...

& i was waiting for an important phone call lol...... & i was holding my file & a pic of me & Bin...

around 12am suddenly a van stopped in front of the entrance & all of us rushed out to the entrance to welcome the girls lol~~ then i saw sunye followed by Soso then i quickly walk to the front, my whole mind was thinking about yubin lol~finally she came out, she was the last one to come out & when she is near to me i called her yubin while showing her the pic & she was like 'oh' then she walked towards me & i asked 'can u sign for me?' but the manager/the security was 'no no signing' but Bin replied them 'nevermind it's ok :)' then i was trying to open the marker pen cover, but it's hard to open & Bin was waiting for me to open it =X sorry~~ when she started to sign the ink suddenly burst out.... i was like omg & she was blank...both of us was so blank & dunno what to do cos the ink splatter at my hand & hers :( sorry~ at the same time i was holding my file, then i quickly flip my file & asked her to sign it for me~ then the security was like 'eh u r not suppose to ask for 2 sign!!!' then Bin said to him 'nevermind it's ok!' i was so touched by her words & i keep apologizing to her for dirty her hand, but she said 'nevermind' which makes me more guilty & sad :( i nearly broke down after she signed at my file :') tears of joy....

after this we went to starbucks for a lil chit chat~ after that we ended out day 1 by writing letters & doing the gifts to them :)

Ahn SOSO replied me!!!!

last 2 days was my lucky day i guess lol....

cos last 2 days Ahn Soso was tweeting & i saw she was replying to someone

so i quickly spam her twitter but not much~

at 1st i saw she replied to nazz... saying that she just finished packing...

so i tweeted her are you girls going back to Korea? at this tweet she does not reply me

so i tweeted another one are you girls going back to Korea? have a safe flight back?

then guess what she replied me thank you~!

omg....i was so stunned at that time & my heart was beating fast & my hands were shaking lol...

let me tell you Ahn Soso was the 1st Wonder Girls member i saw when they were in Sunway last July & now she is the 1st Wonder Girls member who replied my tweet....

she is my 1st for WG... im gonna love her more but still BinBin is my no.1 :D SoSo u r my no.2 :)

Stress

as you all know 1st Wonder is going to hold at Dec 11

which is on my exam week...

so im gonna study extra harder right now & gonna enjoy myself on Dec 11 itself

& back to exam on Dec 13 & 14 =.= .....

my sis told me just now, we still have 46 days to exam... & im seriously scared...

if im not going to pay extra effort in it, my dad is going to chop me off this time...

as im still going for the concert... great D: .....

im sitting for 3 papers this sitting & this 3 papers is not an easy papers...

ahhhh by thinking of it, i think im going to pee on my short right now D:

oh btw my bday is approaching but im not excited at all.... LOL why? don't ask me why?

just no in the mood for my bday... wtf.... funny right? ppl are all excited for their own bday

where else im not excited at all LOL.... we shall see any surprises on my bday or not? i don't think so... haiz... cos i don't have friends...hell yeah :)

okok that's all for a short update :)

1st WONDER IN MALAYSIA

OMG I CANT THINK STRAIGHT RIGHT NOW...

I FEEL LIKE IM LIVING IN A DREAM RIGHT NOW...

EVERYTHING IS LIKE SO UNREAL...

1ST WONDER CONCERT IN MALAYSIA!!!!!

IS ON DEC 11 AT GENTING HIGHLAND ARENA OF STARS!!!!

OMG....CAN I SCREAM....CAN I...CAN I...CAN I???

EVERYTHING IS LIKE A DREAM....

IM HAVING EXAM AT THAT TIME BUT I DON'T THINK I MUST GO...

ALL I NEED TO DO IS STUDY HARD & WORK HARD NOW....OMG....

I CANNOT ONLINE SO OFTEN LIAO D:

COS OF THIS CONCERT I NEED TO STUDY HARD N WORK HARD TO PASS IT...

NO MORE FAILING... NOT ANYMORE!!!!!

September :D

wow i never thought that i had neglected my blog for almost 2 weeks...

haha okok just a simple update on what i have been up to recently??

currently watching The Vampire Diaries Season 1

i know im a bit outdated but im going to finish it tonight or tomorrow :D

haha...started watching on Tuesday night....

& im going to get the latest Ipod Touch... the 4th generation....

too bad i still need to wait for it to release in Malaysia :(

if im going to get a new Ipod Touch, then what phone should i grab then??

give me some suggestion :D

okok just a simple update...i gotta get back to my VD xD

We Ride-Tommy Park

Intro:
Now gimme that
now gimme that

Verse:
we're sitting in silence guess we got nothing left to say
our picture, my jacket, its all im takin out your way
well i take one last glance at you before i go
but you wont, wont even look up to see me walk out the door

Pre:
i was your king and baby you were my queen
i dont know, know where we went wrong
cuz baby remember we used to say

Chorus:
we ride
we used to say there may be times we cry but ima be there till the heart mends
we ride
we used to say its gonna last forever damn i cant believe it's near the end
we ride
i said it (i said it)
you said it (we ride)
we ride we ride we ride we ride
we ride
i said it (i said it)
you said it (we ride)
we ride we ride we ride we ride

Verse:
my music, my lyrics, from the get-go baby you were my number 1 fan
supportin me, you told me i could do anything because i was your man

Pre:
i loved you, i saw you, i knew you and you're all i ever knew
i dont know, know where we went wrong
cuz baby remember we used to say

(Chorus)

Bridge:
Now gimme that
Now gimme that

You mean too much for me to turn and walk away
but theres nothing left for me to do or say (ooh, nothing for me to say)
i can feel the memories already spillin out my head
so i need you to be in my arms again...baby

(Chorus)