For the umpteen time.....

Demotivated

Pissed

Tired

Frustrated

Emotional

Lazy

Stress

Letting U go :)

I'm a dramatic person~
i love to make a fuss of everything~ love it or hate it, i can't control you~
anyway i deleted everything hahahaha~~ finally finally~dk how many N times of giving up, now is the time~~i know it is :)
we are not meant to be seriously we r not!!!
finally all the drama comes to an end~
am not going to bother & interfere your precious life anymore~ U ARE FREE NOW, U CAN DO WHATEVER U WANT!!!! it sounds so great man!!!! woots~~~ congrats congrats :)
Rachel Lee, move on & smile always :) bring back ur happy-go-lucky personality to the whole world :D woots~
i still got 1 thing to worry lol~ about his sis~ anyway heck la~~ when the time is here only find solution~ cos i'm not going to meet him anymore & i think he doesn't want to meet me anymore too~ lol~~anyway we shall see when the time comes lol :D
anyway i hope u find someone who loves you & be happy always :) cheers!!

I'M FREE :D

i'm so tired right now~ lol

this morning went to play badminton with friends & makan too~

now waiting the time to come & going to attend my friend's wedding dinner lol~

many of my friends are getting married, while im still single, waiting for my Mr. Right lol~~ what a sad life :(

i don't mind being single right now but sometimes i will feel very lonely when im alone lol~ cos i do not have much friends :(
anyway i deleted everything hahaha bbm, phone number woots~~~ letting it go finally :D

Library life is going to start soon & i shall put more efforts in my studies this time~~ pass all of it woots~~~

Move On :)

GIVE UP!
Time to move on :)
cheers Rachel Lee~~~
tomorrow is a brand new day~~
the past it's the past....look for the future!!!! :)

Happy End

i never feel so confuse & so lost before~~

i need to find my way out from all this shits~~

i guess the only way is to let it go~~

i will feel better in every way~~

i should lead my happy life rather than staying on something that not worth for me~~

maybe i should say something that not meant for me~~

i always tell myself when it is not yours, no matter how u try still it is not yours~~

clapping one hand & one sided love is not going to work out~~

since i'm not so deeply into it, maybe i should let it go & i'll be happy in every way :)

sometimes i wonder whether people do take my words seriously? haha~~ maybe nah~~

i also do wonder whether people do appreciate what i did? haha~~ idk~~

anyway i should let it go & i will feel better~ maybe i will be sad for few days but looking at the big picture, i will feel happier forever~ :D

i have been waiting for the right one, maybe my Mr. Right is waiting for me too~ haha~~ maybe we haven't meet yet or maybe we already met :D

I'm good in nothing :)

aloha im here again :)

u guys must be shock, why do i come so often recently? erm cos i don't want to update all my ranting at twitter & facebook anymore~~ so i decided to rant at here... it is better no one know this blog anyway :) here is like my secret ranting place from now on hahahaha~ :X

don't worry i will share everything here not only bitterness but also happiness :)

well let's start~~

i know i always give people the feeling that i'm a girl with no emotions~~ cos i always laugh & fooling aound when im with my friends.... haha friends, sorry i need to act cos i don't want to reveal my sad side to u guys~ so i remain as happy as i can~ plus i doesn't want u guys to worry about me & i don't want to reveal anything to anyone~ :) sorry of my selfishness~~

when someone ignore me, i always wanna find out why this person not talking to me~ i always wanna know what did i do that hurt them? but im always that clueless, i don't know what did i do~ maybe sometimes some words that i said, hurt their feelings~ sorry that's my weakness~ if i hurt you, let me know.... i'll change :)

well, frankly speaking i think i don't have friends....haha cos im always alone~ but i always give ppl the impressions that i have a lot of friends but actually i don't~ i don't have true friend~~ i need a friend to share all my emotions lol~~~ but i can't cos i never reveal my secrets to ppl lol~ nvm i will share with u my bloggie

im good in consoling ppl but no one actually know what i have been going through~ haha~ my heart is full of plasters :) lol~~~ being stabbed dk for how many times but surprisingly it's still working fine :) i have a solid heart hahahaha :D

people used to tell me time will heal everything~ i do believe it~ but sometimes i don't~ time is for u to escape everything u have suffer~& u will try to ignore & avoid.....

maybe im a selfish brat! i don't want myself to get hurt, where else i hurt others feeling~ i'm so sorry.....

i'm afraid to be in love.... & i think im not worth for people to love me..... im not pretty, im stupid, im dumb, im not good in anything, in conclusion im nth~ pathetic :)

i don't think i wanna to continue writing anymore haha~~ i feel like crying now lol~~ anyway ciao~~

OH BABY TELL ME WHY YOU ACT SO STRANGE

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!

aloha haha long time never update about my 'WONDERFUL' life lol~~~

well i'm doing very very fine~ still alive, still suffering, still studying, still enjoying, still gaining weights, still removing fats lol~

i think now here is a place for me rant haha~~ all happy & unhappy stuffs imma write it all here from now on :) yippeeee~ anyway no readers also lol~~

sometimes ppl said when u r in love, u r very happy & always like full with happiness & whatsoever~hmmmm i can prove that this is all lies lol~~~

maybe in my case it is different from ppl~ hmmmm.....

anyway i maybe putting too much love on my so-called boyfriend.... one sided love~ clapping one hand all the way~ hahaha bodoh! *facepalm*

i already made the wrong decision, i don't think we can work out anyway...why am i still holding on? i should just cut it off & lead my happy life~~ not worth by thinking or caring for the boyfriend, while he is enjoying his ass out with his friends~~ lol....bodoh!

PLUS, he don't even wanna talk to u & everything he also dunno & keep everything to himself *NO he keeps everything from me* lol~~ bodoh!

he always give u silly excuses & somemore i choose to trust him lol~ bodoh!

ask me what do he like? i only can answer CLUBBING! lol bodoh!

did he talk to u? errrrrr NOPE~~~ lol bodoh!

when is your last conversation with him? errrrrr May?? lol bodoh!

when did u last see him? April~~ lol bodoh!

so u guys r in a long distance relationship? YUP~~~ very very far from each other like Mars & Venus lol bodoh!

My so-called boyfriend said he doesn't know how to express his feeling to me cos we are FAR...lol okok i understand but in the 1st place you should not agree to be in this relationship what!!!! lol bodoh!

although we do not see each other but i can say we r in arguments all the time!!! lol bodoh!

Rachel Lee, you should wake up & face the truth!!! your so called boyfriend doesn't love you at all!!!! time to wake up & end all suffering!!!!! lol bodoh!

okok i should wake up & adjust back my happy life back~~ :D *click the delete button* proofs.....*clearing in process* *data deleted* weeeeeeeeee :D

sometimes when your patience limit is reach, u can't accept it anymore~~

u will tend not to listen & remember explanation is just to cover up the naked truth!

the more u explain, the more u r lying to urself~ to make ur partner feel better~actually sorry i do not feel better in anyway~~~ lol....

anyway on a brighter side, imma to Korean Music Wave 2011 in Malaysia~~~ weeeeeeee :D

gonna enjoy myself to the fullest~~ finally i get to see my FT Babies & TOP!!!!! *fangirl scream*

after that, im going to start my daily library life :D hahahahaha..... i do miss studying now! maybe should start now haha~~~ study! put more effort! remember after all this professional qualification is recognize worldwide!!!! who doesn't hire a professional qualification holder! okok STUDY HARD!!!!! SUCCESSFUL WOMEN IN MAKING!!!!!!

whoever who despise u in the past....show them what u have!!!!! prove them wrong!!!!!

ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF!!!!!! :D

heart is so jetlagged x)

ANNYEONGHASEYO~~~ x)

it's been a long time since my last update hehe~~

im sorry~ cos im very busy with my daily routine lol which is an excuse lol~~ignore me :)

well well well....im doing good here but a lil bit emo lol~~~

emo bout what? erm let me keep it to myself :D hiak hiak hiak~~~

wow June is almost over & we r going to step into the second half of 2011~~~woots~~~

time flies without realizing hahaha & i did nth for the last 6 months~~~ no achievement at all~~lol Rachel Lee u fail :)

ahhhhh i think i did something~~~ make ppl heartbreak i think lol~~~or should i say make ppl hate me?? hmmmm bad bad~~~

ahha~~ recently i met a new friend haha he is not bad hahaha~~ my lil bro always have heart to heart talk with me :) almost say im emo but actually im not hehe~~~ thx friend for cheering me up :) remember u promise to lend me ur shoulder to cry on if something happen to me :) hiak hiak hiak~~~ don worry i won't let myself cry it out lol~~~ im strong lmao~~~ only my heart cries :) hahahahahaha~~~

hmmmm i don't understand why i have those negative thingy always pop up at my mind lol~ is not that i don't trust u, it's u that did not convince me to believe u lol~~ anyway idk~ ilu but idk im confuse...... i wanna give up on us but my heart said NOOOOOO~~lol wtf..... & u always give me a cold shoulder hahaha~~ & i feel like everytime i talk to u, u r just hmmm ok, make me ide. this is why i don dare to talk to u & i feel like im disturbing u~ haha.... anyway idk what should i do? can someone give me some advice? hahahahahahaha~~~ im lost....very very lost :( should i give up? please give me some advice? :)

1st WONDER IN MALAYSIA D-1

aloha haha sorry for delaying the fanaccount :(

cos i just finished my exam :D ok let's start with my fanaccount~~

Day 1

reached Genting around 2pm, went to meet Melin & Yiwei~ finally we met after MTV World Stage which was 5 months ago :) miss them so so so much now :(

after meeting them i went to meet aj,nazz & kak bee :) haha they were staying with me & jane for 1 night, yiwei & melin's room was next to ours :D

after settling everything in the hotel room, we went to stalk lol~~ not really stalk, we went to search for foods~~ but while searching for foods, yujie called me, she told me that she is here woots~at that time we were at 1st world plaza & i asked her to meet at 1st world hotel, so we went all the way back to 1st world hotel to meet her :) yujie nice to meet you, i miss u already TT

after that we bring her to the bell counter to keep her luggages & her stuffs~ then we wanna headed to dinner & then we were walking around genting & we saw 2 vans were inside the arena, then something just popped up in my mind, they were rehearsing inside the arena!!! so i quickly told them that they were inside... but im not sure whether they were inside or not? so we said let's wait n see... & it is!!!! they were inside...when one of the van was out, we saw sohee,yubin n the rest i did not see them~so we wanna know which hotel they are staying so we ran after the van =.= crazy huh... unfortunately we lost them :(... so we decided to go to have our dinner at a BBQ restaurant :) lol.....after dinner we decided to go back to the hotel to bath & then meet up again at starbucks.... but in the end, we heard that they were rehearsing so yiwei n i went to the venue n waited....then later emma n leonard joined us~ jane & melin went to coffee bean...while waiting for them we actually heard what they are going to perform~ :) after that yiwei & leonard went to find the hotel, emma & i stayed at the venue until i met someone i knew... :) he told me where they stayed, but i still dunno where is the place so~ emma & i waited for a lil bit longer then we decided to find the hotel... :) & it's freezing during the night :(

when we climbed to the hotel, it's very windy & it's very cold.... :(

after we arrived at the hotel, not much fans are there.... only our gang & SG gang were there...

& i was waiting for an important phone call lol...... & i was holding my file & a pic of me & Bin...

around 12am suddenly a van stopped in front of the entrance & all of us rushed out to the entrance to welcome the girls lol~~ then i saw sunye followed by Soso then i quickly walk to the front, my whole mind was thinking about yubin lol~finally she came out, she was the last one to come out & when she is near to me i called her yubin while showing her the pic & she was like 'oh' then she walked towards me & i asked 'can u sign for me?' but the manager/the security was 'no no signing' but Bin replied them 'nevermind it's ok :)' then i was trying to open the marker pen cover, but it's hard to open & Bin was waiting for me to open it =X sorry~~ when she started to sign the ink suddenly burst out.... i was like omg & she was blank...both of us was so blank & dunno what to do cos the ink splatter at my hand & hers :( sorry~ at the same time i was holding my file, then i quickly flip my file & asked her to sign it for me~ then the security was like 'eh u r not suppose to ask for 2 sign!!!' then Bin said to him 'nevermind it's ok!' i was so touched by her words & i keep apologizing to her for dirty her hand, but she said 'nevermind' which makes me more guilty & sad :( i nearly broke down after she signed at my file :') tears of joy....

after this we went to starbucks for a lil chit chat~ after that we ended out day 1 by writing letters & doing the gifts to them :)