Random Outburst

Boooooo when you have to attend class on a lovely Saturday morning :(

somemore the subject you have to attend is law..... yuckssssss i felt so lawful ( law is awful) but what to do...as a good student like me :D I'm going to attend the class hahaha :D

Plus today my parents invited Mr. Huang to my house & he is going to see what are we going to go through for the next year!!!!! BOOOOOO...... this is the 1st time he's here & i'm out :((((((( how sad.....

oh well.... luckily nothing much for me the next year hahaha :))))) just he said that i have a lot of secrets....LOL I AM!!!! I need to share it out.... maybe i should share it here hehe ^^ secondly, he said i have a lot of 'flies' flying around me LOL.... hope it is true!!! :DDDD lemme meet a nice one! LOL.... just kidding!! luckily he never said congrats she is getting married next year!!! IMMA die LMAO!!!! hahahaha..... thirdly, he said in order to make everything goes smoothly, i need to go OVERSEA for HOLIDAY!!!!!!! :DDDDDDD wheeeee...... *plan for my holiday now....:D* fourthly, he said i might fall down... need to be careful.... hmmmm..... *noted that!* hopefully next year is a better year than this year :))))))) although this year is not a bad year for me~~ well of course i should hope for the best!!!! :DDDDDD

hahahaha actually i have another things to confess lol.... i'm a bit overboard this time for angry & ignoring him last night opps :X it's not i wanna be like this... i was like this, it is because i care about him, as he just recovered from sick....& he went to party.... i know he always party & i couldn't care less... but come to think about it...you just recover from sick & u party till dawn??? don't you think he is overboard?? haha oh well.....maybe i'm a bit overreacted this time.... he was shocked at my outburst today... i seriously run out of patient already... it's good to say it out instead of keep it to myself right... in order to make our relationship stronger, we should share out what we feel & solve it together :)))))  idk why i'm like that this time~~ it's a bit scary, come to think about it now LOL..... oh well.... i shall not talk about it anymore~~ :DDDDD

but i should said i'm really a good actress hahaha... i can be so angry towards him, but at the outside i'm fooling around with my friends & my siblings.... great actress :))))) i will win Oscar!!! LOL....

ijustwwanttobewithyou&whyitissohard :(((((( 

Here I am :)

Annyeong haseyo~~~
mood status: good
it's been a while hehe....
well, i'm doing fine here :)
KMW was AWESOME.... met 2 new friends :)))))))
it's OCTOBER already & it's my MONTH :)))))))))))
can't believe that 2011 is coming to an end~~~ time flies.....
well i did not achieve anything this year OMG.....what a waste :((((((((
I should study really really hard this time to pass 3 papers....so in the end I do achieve something right?
hmmmmm..... STUDY HARD RACHEL LEE :DDDDDDDDD STUDY FOR YOUR FUTURE!!!!! I WANNA BE A SUCCESSFUL CORPORATE WOMAN :))))))))))
i always tell myself that time doesn't stop for anyone..... plus I'm going to be 24 in 19 days time.... seriously I'm damn useless hahaha~~~ all of my friends are working to earn for a living, while i'm still fooling around.... many admire me but I feel ashamed.... :(((((((
I should take this as my motivation to study.... hmmmm..... let's suffer for this 2 months & after dec 12 i'll be free & gonna send my resume to some firms.... :)))))) job searching is on!!!!! hahaha......
after my exam i think i'm going to move to my new house!! woots :)))))))))))) can't wait to have my own room.... hahaha.... i'm a happy girl  woman~~~ some people ask why u r not sharing the same room with your sister? well my sister said " she(me) is 24 already, she should have her own room, so next time she can bring her bf home." seriously WTF!!!!! hahaha..... she has a point.... oh well.... thx u anyway :))))) I'll try my best to find a jie fu for you LOL........
till then, I'll study hard!!!! :))))))))))

For the umpteen time.....

Demotivated

Pissed

Tired

Frustrated

Emotional

Lazy

Stress

Letting U go :)

I'm a dramatic person~
i love to make a fuss of everything~ love it or hate it, i can't control you~
anyway i deleted everything hahahaha~~ finally finally~dk how many N times of giving up, now is the time~~i know it is :)
we are not meant to be seriously we r not!!!
finally all the drama comes to an end~
am not going to bother & interfere your precious life anymore~ U ARE FREE NOW, U CAN DO WHATEVER U WANT!!!! it sounds so great man!!!! woots~~~ congrats congrats :)
Rachel Lee, move on & smile always :) bring back ur happy-go-lucky personality to the whole world :D woots~
i still got 1 thing to worry lol~ about his sis~ anyway heck la~~ when the time is here only find solution~ cos i'm not going to meet him anymore & i think he doesn't want to meet me anymore too~ lol~~anyway we shall see when the time comes lol :D
anyway i hope u find someone who loves you & be happy always :) cheers!!

I'M FREE :D

i'm so tired right now~ lol

this morning went to play badminton with friends & makan too~

now waiting the time to come & going to attend my friend's wedding dinner lol~

many of my friends are getting married, while im still single, waiting for my Mr. Right lol~~ what a sad life :(

i don't mind being single right now but sometimes i will feel very lonely when im alone lol~ cos i do not have much friends :(
anyway i deleted everything hahaha bbm, phone number woots~~~ letting it go finally :D

Library life is going to start soon & i shall put more efforts in my studies this time~~ pass all of it woots~~~

Move On :)

GIVE UP!
Time to move on :)
cheers Rachel Lee~~~
tomorrow is a brand new day~~
the past it's the past....look for the future!!!! :)

Happy End

i never feel so confuse & so lost before~~

i need to find my way out from all this shits~~

i guess the only way is to let it go~~

i will feel better in every way~~

i should lead my happy life rather than staying on something that not worth for me~~

maybe i should say something that not meant for me~~

i always tell myself when it is not yours, no matter how u try still it is not yours~~

clapping one hand & one sided love is not going to work out~~

since i'm not so deeply into it, maybe i should let it go & i'll be happy in every way :)

sometimes i wonder whether people do take my words seriously? haha~~ maybe nah~~

i also do wonder whether people do appreciate what i did? haha~~ idk~~

anyway i should let it go & i will feel better~ maybe i will be sad for few days but looking at the big picture, i will feel happier forever~ :D

i have been waiting for the right one, maybe my Mr. Right is waiting for me too~ haha~~ maybe we haven't meet yet or maybe we already met :D

I'm good in nothing :)

aloha im here again :)

u guys must be shock, why do i come so often recently? erm cos i don't want to update all my ranting at twitter & facebook anymore~~ so i decided to rant at here... it is better no one know this blog anyway :) here is like my secret ranting place from now on hahahaha~ :X

don't worry i will share everything here not only bitterness but also happiness :)

well let's start~~

i know i always give people the feeling that i'm a girl with no emotions~~ cos i always laugh & fooling aound when im with my friends.... haha friends, sorry i need to act cos i don't want to reveal my sad side to u guys~ so i remain as happy as i can~ plus i doesn't want u guys to worry about me & i don't want to reveal anything to anyone~ :) sorry of my selfishness~~

when someone ignore me, i always wanna find out why this person not talking to me~ i always wanna know what did i do that hurt them? but im always that clueless, i don't know what did i do~ maybe sometimes some words that i said, hurt their feelings~ sorry that's my weakness~ if i hurt you, let me know.... i'll change :)

well, frankly speaking i think i don't have friends....haha cos im always alone~ but i always give ppl the impressions that i have a lot of friends but actually i don't~ i don't have true friend~~ i need a friend to share all my emotions lol~~~ but i can't cos i never reveal my secrets to ppl lol~ nvm i will share with u my bloggie

im good in consoling ppl but no one actually know what i have been going through~ haha~ my heart is full of plasters :) lol~~~ being stabbed dk for how many times but surprisingly it's still working fine :) i have a solid heart hahahaha :D

people used to tell me time will heal everything~ i do believe it~ but sometimes i don't~ time is for u to escape everything u have suffer~& u will try to ignore & avoid.....

maybe im a selfish brat! i don't want myself to get hurt, where else i hurt others feeling~ i'm so sorry.....

i'm afraid to be in love.... & i think im not worth for people to love me..... im not pretty, im stupid, im dumb, im not good in anything, in conclusion im nth~ pathetic :)

i don't think i wanna to continue writing anymore haha~~ i feel like crying now lol~~ anyway ciao~~

OH BABY TELL ME WHY YOU ACT SO STRANGE

I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!

aloha haha long time never update about my 'WONDERFUL' life lol~~~

well i'm doing very very fine~ still alive, still suffering, still studying, still enjoying, still gaining weights, still removing fats lol~

i think now here is a place for me rant haha~~ all happy & unhappy stuffs imma write it all here from now on :) yippeeee~ anyway no readers also lol~~

sometimes ppl said when u r in love, u r very happy & always like full with happiness & whatsoever~hmmmm i can prove that this is all lies lol~~~

maybe in my case it is different from ppl~ hmmmm.....

anyway i maybe putting too much love on my so-called boyfriend.... one sided love~ clapping one hand all the way~ hahaha bodoh! *facepalm*

i already made the wrong decision, i don't think we can work out anyway...why am i still holding on? i should just cut it off & lead my happy life~~ not worth by thinking or caring for the boyfriend, while he is enjoying his ass out with his friends~~ lol....bodoh!

PLUS, he don't even wanna talk to u & everything he also dunno & keep everything to himself *NO he keeps everything from me* lol~~ bodoh!

he always give u silly excuses & somemore i choose to trust him lol~ bodoh!

ask me what do he like? i only can answer CLUBBING! lol bodoh!

did he talk to u? errrrrr NOPE~~~ lol bodoh!

when is your last conversation with him? errrrrr May?? lol bodoh!

when did u last see him? April~~ lol bodoh!

so u guys r in a long distance relationship? YUP~~~ very very far from each other like Mars & Venus lol bodoh!

My so-called boyfriend said he doesn't know how to express his feeling to me cos we are FAR...lol okok i understand but in the 1st place you should not agree to be in this relationship what!!!! lol bodoh!

although we do not see each other but i can say we r in arguments all the time!!! lol bodoh!

Rachel Lee, you should wake up & face the truth!!! your so called boyfriend doesn't love you at all!!!! time to wake up & end all suffering!!!!! lol bodoh!

okok i should wake up & adjust back my happy life back~~ :D *click the delete button* proofs.....*clearing in process* *data deleted* weeeeeeeeee :D

sometimes when your patience limit is reach, u can't accept it anymore~~

u will tend not to listen & remember explanation is just to cover up the naked truth!

the more u explain, the more u r lying to urself~ to make ur partner feel better~actually sorry i do not feel better in anyway~~~ lol....

anyway on a brighter side, imma to Korean Music Wave 2011 in Malaysia~~~ weeeeeeee :D

gonna enjoy myself to the fullest~~ finally i get to see my FT Babies & TOP!!!!! *fangirl scream*

after that, im going to start my daily library life :D hahahahaha..... i do miss studying now! maybe should start now haha~~~ study! put more effort! remember after all this professional qualification is recognize worldwide!!!! who doesn't hire a professional qualification holder! okok STUDY HARD!!!!! SUCCESSFUL WOMEN IN MAKING!!!!!!

whoever who despise u in the past....show them what u have!!!!! prove them wrong!!!!!

ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF!!!!!! :D