Opportunities that slip away from me

it's been a very long time since my last update....
im sorry had been busy preparing for exams....
well, i was doing some packing & dumping some stuffs.... cos i'll be moving in 2 weeks time.....whee..... :D
but i hate packing....well mum was right, she said that i had the most stuffs in the family...well said LOL....i have to agree with her now.... :X
so many things i wish i can keep & so many things i wish to throw... dilemma... should i keep it or just dump it??
those were memories... memories that i cherish...
well heck~~ for this entry... im going to talk about my-so-call-puppy-love-with-someone-who-does-not-know-i-like-them. *oops one of them just liked my fb status* hahaha.... i have a feeling of commenting to him that ' you are one of them' hahaha guess i should keep it to myself :)
okok let's start talking about puppy love 1:
hahahaha how to start it? okok it all started in NS which was in year 2005... i knew him there... he is a very smart, easy-going, happy-go-lucky guy.... it's all started in one night, my camp was organising a talk... & we were bored lol.... we were using paper to talk to each others :) from then we became friend.... later on, both of us were having night duty on the same night...from then we exchange phone number :) it's all so sweet, so innocent.... lol....after NS we still keep in touch with each other until today~~~ i still remember i had feeling towards him but i never let him know until today hahaha~~ well the feeling had long gone.... but still it's still one of my lovely memories :)
puppy love 2:
he was my net friend but we do met in real life.... i always called him didi until today he is still my didi~~ hahaha... i used to have feeling towards him but still i never let him know about it~~~ hahahaha.... he used to sms me tons of tons of lovely poem that he wrote himself.... how lovely he can be... i guess he won his gf heart but using that tactic.... & i used to call him Egg cos of his name hehe ^^
i wonder if i do confess to the both of them, i might be his another half or maybe not.... both of them are my opportunities & i let them slip away from me.... im not sad or what but i feel this is why until now i am still single lol..... i'm a single lady single lady :D
both of them left a very huge impact in my heart until today... although the feeling has long gone.... both of them just reminds me of the time of growing up :)
maybe God doesn't want me to be with them... He wants me to be with x-x-x.... Dear God, are you playing a prank on me? Why can't u send me someone who deserve me better? Why him? Why? I can really feel that he doesn't have any feeling towards me.... he is just using me to pass him free time... he is playing with my feeling....Dear God.... i beg you....please send him away from me....i can't take it anymore....i may look strong outside but inside of me are fragile.... once break, it shatters.... :(